Jen's Solitude
57Jen’s Solitude
My peace does not come easily today, my well-being has given place to just being. My thoughts keep me captive in my pain, and my once sweet memories have turned bitter, leaving me sad and sadder. Today I’m desolate in my solitude and devastation.Like a visit from a family member unloved, this devastation must be tolerated for a duration. Today I’m heart-broken and missing you, your voice, your laughter, even your tears.
When that tomorrow comes, will I look forward with tears of joy when once we are reunited? To see my best friend again will bring me untold delight, to see my mom - ECTASY! Until then, I wait with long-suffering as my support, with love for you as my stronghold, and today. . . with pain as my companion.
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Well written. I am glad I found you. Take care.
"only words" that you offer MFB? Hardly! Thank you so much, I look forward to reading this over and over, especially during those difficult times when the tears want to flow!
Escape to pleasure and smile.
©-MFB III
There is a space
deep inside us all
a well that refreshes
and gives new flavor to life
it is seldom visited often enough
but it's always ready to invigorate
Immerse yourself there
in that pool of happy tears
long since shed
on the paths of memories lanes
where what is old, and familiar and warm
will renew...blotting out despair
that grows like a fungus on
your present state of mind
Pick a spot...any spot
back when you were five
Mom's tenderest kiss
your first taste of ice cream
or the taste of watermelon
on a hot noon in July
your first kiss
whether or not it was
in dreams or real...
use music to help carry you there
there is probably a song
for every moment in our lives
that was playing then
that one special song you so love
go back to a place you cherished
and spend the day
even if it is no longer there
breathe the air...walk the fields
your youthful feet trod
call an old friend and just chat
look in the mirror and take stock
using admiration only
to define all of your assets
for you see there is a space
inside of us all
that harbours us
from the cruel edges
of each days realities
~
Walk softly there
leave no depressions
in it's sands
go barefoot in
the summer that was
relive the love
that made your heart
race your soul
till they both won
feel the soft touch
of a concerned friend
or just spend some
moments on the beach
wind in your hair
and salt tang on your lips
gulls crying stereo wails
for all the days you were away
I send with you only positives
and a small kiss of gratitiude
for your cries
we have all at
one time or another
been in the land of
uninspired
the sick, the weary
and the lonely
on an incline
overwhelmed
where gravity
strains the shouders
and despair is
the only pairing you know
escape from there to a place
that knows not these burdens
and s m i l e ! !
It's only words
all that I can offer
while wishing there was more.
Thanks so much russiangypsygirl! I'm glad we have found each other to!
Just gorgeous! I'm so glad you found me, and now I found you! Your poems are exactly what I love to read, I felt your depth and sadness. Thank you for a wonderful read!
Hi Money Glitch, thanks for reading. I'm glad this very sad month is almost over as losing her hurts the most right now. I look forward to filling my soul with pleasant memories about her once again. I appreciate your comment.
I read this hub first and had to go back to see what had happened...(the lost of a loved one). The words sounded so familiar that within my spirit I already knew.
Hang in the Jen, some days I can recall actually having to tell myself to breathe just to make it through the day. Thanks for sharing!
Thank you so much fastfreta.
Very heartwarming, I don't look forward to this feeling. Thank you for sharing. Looking forward to reading more.
Thank you Duchess, I am counting down the days until January will be here.
Jen, you can paint such a vivid picture with so few words.
Hang in there!
Smiling at your last sentence LizzyBoo, thanks for the laugh. This month can't be over soon enough, but finally there are only a few days left.
The darkness comes and goes. We all have our ups and downs. I know you are shinning trough your hubs, the clouds have no chance to survive! Be strong and smille. God will guide your steps and I will read your hubs. :-)
Will Do, ethel! :-)
Keep the faith
Hi Connie, Yesterday was the official day, but was much easier to get through then the day I wrote this poem, which was on Tuesday. Don't know why, but am glad its over now, needless to say. We do get through it, which is what I hold on to. Thanks for your comment.
One day at a time, sweet Jesus....I love that song, sung by Christie Lane. We have to face each anniversary of death like all others. Somehow we get through them and go on, and yes, the memories are bittersweet, yet then again, more precious than Gold to us. They can make us cry and they can also make us smile and laugh. Embrace the wonderful memories as the day approaches as we both know our loved ones are smiling down on us from Heaven.
Good Morning Jessicab, tnderhrt23, and Sue
Thank you all very much for your caring and empathetic comments. Yesterday was a very hard day, but am glad that my heart is not as heavy today. Writing this brief poem helped as did your warm comments.
Glad the sun is shining once again! :)
Dar,
Few words, much said! Reaching outward rather than sinking inward, even in your moment of anguish, you see the light of joy. You feel the mixture of all that is, knowing each is a passing fleeting thing...except the final note of joy, and although it sounds so faint now...you hear it yet.
Bless you through this leg of your JOurneY! Prayers, Love, Light and Peace to you at this time! Se
Moving piece, I have visited this place more than once in my lifetime.My favorite line...""Like a visit from a family member unloved, this devastation must be tolerated for a duration."...this too shall pass...be strong, have faith, "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning"
Very interesting hub and stay strong, you can do it. From Jessicab from hubpages.
Jen's Solitude Hub Author 21 months ago
Thanks Granny's House. Nice to meet you too!